Saturday, December 12, 2009

a pretty good dayI saw Ralph

Ralph came up from MD today to drop off a tv. It's the last I'll see of him until after March sometime (because of the baby on the way). I had a really nice time. We talked about Rykujin, school (for both R and me), the baby and a myriad of other things. I finally went to the new Creamery and got some Keeny Beanie ice cream (my favorite).

Let's see, what all has gone on since last I blogged...

My mommy came for a visit. It was SUPERgood to see her. It's been ages. I offloaded some yarn onto her in the hopes if she gets bored enough, she might turn it into a crocheted sweater. I can't believe she's 60. 60!!!! My mom stopped aging somewhere in her 30's to me. It always comes as a shock to remember that I'm 35. Where has all the time gone?? *sigh*

My dryer broke. The belt that makes it tumble snapped. We're going to have a repair guy come out Wednesday to fix it. I just hope he can. I can't figure out how you get into the dryer to do it... There's one tiny little portal in the lower back corner that you can open (that's how we found the snapped belt) but for the life of me, I don't know how to actually get into the dryer... Anyhow it's less than $100 to fix it which is a far cry from $250 minimum to replace it. Ouch.
I'll be so happy to do laundry again with my own dryer... so happy...

and- I dyed my hair again... It's now teal, royal blue and purple... *hugs* to you all

Friday, December 04, 2009

minor update

YAY! My mommy visited me today. I got to give her bags of yarn and a book with a sweater pattern in it so she may be making me a sweater woot! It was really nice seeing her. I forget how much I miss her sometimes. She lives about 35 miles away.

I've been working on learning Navajo plying. I was going to try to describe it, but I think having a video showing you will just be easier:

Over all, I'm doing ok. My thyroid was out of whack again, so we had to increase my sythroid and I'm low on vitamin d, so I have started supplements for it. An enzyme shows I have minor muscle inflammation, (as though I had been lifting weights a lot, which I havn't =). I get retested bloodwork next week.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

new behbe

Studdragon and wife have announced the birth of Studdragonette!! She was 10lb, 21" long with a full head of black hair.

Momma and behbe are still in the hospital for a little while due to some complications, but things are going pretty well....

Monday, November 09, 2009

School thing

Well, I've started it. I've contacted PSU's World Campus. They are in the process of doing a degree audit for me. I'm hoping that most of my general education credits are already done. I will hear back from them soon via email. It's too late to start this spring (financial aid) but I should have no problems starting this coming summer.

OMG am I freaking out. I don't know why, but I'm all jittery. On one hand, it's a simple, small step with no real danger associated with it. On the other hand, it's what leads up to big things that I can potentially fuck up. *deep breath*

I've settled on the IST degree. I'm just hoping that my hands and wrists are up to it.

ungh. I think I'm going to go be sick now....

Well, I got my degree audit back. Aside from English 202, I have all the general education credits (plus some =) done. All that's left are the major prescribed classes. All in all, there are 40 credits that I need for the IST major according to the audit. However, I have to have had 60 within the last 5 years. I think (if I'm understanding this correctly) I'm going to have to take 5 extra classes just so that I hit the 60 credit mark for graduation. I'm not entirely clear on the difference between the Associates degree (from the hyperlink) and the Bachelors that I intend on getting. I *think* it's more 4 or 5 extra 400+ level classes that I need to take.

Just a random thought for me to think about, but I wonder if those extra classes I need to take would be enough for a minor in something. I'll have to explore that more later when I'm not feeling overwhelmed by the whole process....

Tomorrow we're taking both Havoc and 1/2&1/2 to get fixed in the morning, then I have my appointment with Amanda in the afternoon, then we have to pick up the cats from the vet, so I won't be able to actually do anything about classes tomorrow, but sometime, before the end of the week, I hope to scrape together my $20 and re-enroll at PSU. Definitely summer session classes. *gulp*

I also talked to my mom for about an hour today. It was actually really good talking with her. I got to catch up on what's been going on in her life (glossy overview). I miss my mom. Things have been rough for both of us both separately and together, but in the end, she's my mom. If that makes any sense. It's hard to believe that she's 60. 60!!!!OMG where has time gone??

hugs and love to you all. I don't tell each of you often enough how much you mean to me. You guys are what keeps me going most of the time. Thanks for being there.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Yarn Barf

My package of yarn barf arrived today. What's 'yarn barf' you ask? Well, in this case, it was about a dozen skeins of yarn thrown into a dryer 4 years ago. Through a friend of a friend from ravelry, I aquired this untangling project. I know, I'm insane, but for some reason I like untangling string. I'm just hoping I didn't bite off more than I can chew!!! Larger images are here and here

Update: I've managed to extract and ball up the small black/grey tangle in the upper right corner. I'm pretty sure the rest is not going to untangle nearly that willingly...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Financial aid

Well, it looks like the deadlines for financial aid are February 15 for the FAFSA and April 15 for PHEAA. January 1 is the earliest I can file according to this page. The actual financial aid pages don't seem to have 'current' information on deadlines. I can only assume that these dates still stand as general guidelines for Fall enrollment.

I know Ralph and I have talked about all this info in the past, but I'm slowly taking baby steps to actually follow through with it. I'm still torn about what degree to actually go for, let alone the logistics of 1) dealing with large groups of students at class change 2) getting around physically on campus and how sore and tired I'll be and 3) getting to and from campus on a daily basis. I guess it's one hurdle at a time.

Amanda and I talked about how school went for me the first time I attempted it. I would hit roadblocks and turn a different direction instead of trying to get past it. Though the medical leave I took in '95 was an 'either/or' reason. I could either take classes and work towards my degree OR I could work and make money. I simply couldn't do both. It was too exhausting mentally and physically. In retrospect, I wonder if that was an early warning sign... Besides, working (almost) full time directly lead to me my full time job/career. I gained valuble experience that was essentially worth a degree in the SysAdmin field. I met and was able to influence a number of people in various ways (positive, that is). So who knows. I can't go
back and change those actions, only learn from them and apply that knowledge to my future actions.
I've been knitting. A lot. I think I've messed up my right hand again by doing it. I've had to stop and even wear my brace again. *sigh* On the plus side, I was able to make about 2 dozen rolags of the wool/alpaca. That doesn't seem to use the motion that make my hand hurt, so that's a good thing. The other thing I've been doing is winding skeins into balls. The photo is of 3 balls of set wool/alpaca blend ready to knit! yay!!!

well enough for now. hugs and love to you all

OH! btw if anyone needs it (Duckie =) 814.308.4145 I've been bad about remembering to call people. Like usual

Sunday, October 18, 2009

XMRV and CFS/Fibromyalgia

Brand-spanking-new research out of the Whittemore Peterson Institute shows a strong indication that a retrovirus (XMRV) is tied to Fibromyalgia!! It was originally shown to correlate with prostate cancer. Further research then tied to it Chronic Fatigue Syndrome as well as Fibromyalgia.
"The spectrum of neuro-immune diseases including: Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME/CFS), Atypical MS, Fibromyalgia and Gulf War Syndrome, share common abnormalities in the innate immune response inc, which result in chronic immune activation and immune deficiency.

We have detected the retroviral infection XMRV is greater than 95% of the more than 200 ME/CFS, Fibromylagia, Atypical MS patients tested. The current working hypothesis is that XMRV infection of B, T, NK and other cells of the innate immune response causes the chronic inflammation and immune deficiency resulting in an inability to mount an effective immune response to opportunistic infections. "

The paper that presented this (if you're like me and like reading the actual technical paper) can be found off of
Science/AAAS's web site.

This is huge news. Its some of the first concrete evidence that there's really something going on within the body of people who suffer these "syndromes". Personally I find that word distasteful on a number of levels. 'Syndrome', to me, has a lot of negative connotation. It is like a pat on the head and not being believed. Thousands of people suffer in similar ways and yet there's still a large percentage that think, "Oh, it's all in your head." because there's no conclusive test to "prove" you're sick. There's even doctors like this. I know because I have encountered it on occasions.

While the blood test is not publicly available at the moment, they are working on getting it set up. The other down side is that there's no treatment, per se, for it currently. At least it's a step towards better understanding. It's a tiny beacon of light in a very dark tunnel. =-)


The Crafty Bitches were going to go to The Manning's Saturday, but the weather was just too aweful. The roads were a mess, the snow was still coming down, and traffic was backed up for god knows how many miles on 322 east as we were leaving town. We ended up turning around and going to Cephalogal's place and knitting. We're going to do the Manning's next weekend, instead. Oddly enough, that works out better for me since I get paid on Wednesday. I didn't have any money this weekend. (not that I expect to have a lot this weekend, but a little is better than none =-)

Other than that, I've not been up to too much other than spinning with the new wheel. I've been rather lazy about email and calling people (sorry!) Hope everyone is doing well.
hugs and love

Thursday, October 15, 2009

ok. who ordered the snow?

Not only is it snowing with no signs of stopping, but it's sticking! It's bloody October bloody 15th. WTF?

Now granted, there was a time in the past where I would have jumped up and down with excitement over this. However, I've gotten old and stodgy. Snow, now, means I'm going to get stiff and sore and cold. *sigh*

According to "'s Chief Meteorologist and Expert Long Range Forecaster Joe Bastardi" my little portion of PA should expect a cold, wet winter. horray.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

the Degree thing...

My therapist and I have been spending more time talking about what I want to do with the next phase of my life. I'm pretty sure I'm at the point where I shit or get off the pot, as the saying goes. I'm seriously considering going back to PSU and either doing the IST BA or the IST BS. Comp Sci just isn't my cup-o-tea. My math skills are laughable. I don't want to design chips, rather I want to be able to use them. =-) Other areas that I thought about are Art BA (computer graphics) or (photo) Journalism degree.

The other thought was to try and find a job. The problem is the current economy sucks and I'm already 5 years out of touch with Systems Administration. I'm not that attractive of an employee prospect.

One of the other things that I'm going to have to deal with at some point is talking with Demented and going through the process of dissolving Argent Muse's Sandbox, then declaring bankruptcy. Unfortunately, I don't have the money to do either of those things (heh, I have to have money to prove I have no money. Go figure) and I get anxious and feel freaked out at the prospect of talking with Demented. I suppose I could use a third party (KlrWombat??) to act as the go-between...

*sigh* changes are coming and I'm scared shitless.

Tonight I'm going to take my spinning wheel to the local Barns & Nobel and hang out with the spinning guild for a while.

See, I'm making progress, it's just really, really slow progress. =-)

Sunday, October 11, 2009

ZOMG! Spinning wheel!

Choperena found a spinning wheel for me! It's an Ashford Traditional single treadle. New, it goes for $425 or so, but she found it for $50!!!!!!! It's taken me a couple hours to get it working (i had to make a brass cotter pin that goes through the wheel and the drive shaft) and get the hang of it, but I'm spinning!! It's a very exciting day for me. *does happy dance* This should make spinning the alpaca/wool blend for my sweater go much faster.

hope everyone else is doing well. hugs and love

Monday, October 05, 2009

general update

Nothing too exciting to report. Well, that's not exactly true. I got to see Ralph and his family this weekend. I was really glad to see them. They're doing well. Yay!

I noticed on Demented's facebook page he's now got wheels again. I'm really glad. I know how much driving means to him. I hope he's been able to just go for drives in the country like he used to do.

Mostly, I'm just here. Not _depressed_ like I've been in the past, just, well, not happy. Part of it deals with Rykujin and someone else I'll call Zed. I really like Zed. A lot. There's so much invested in Rykujin though. He's stated that he'll leave everything behind and go start a new life if that's what I want. Not exactly. I don't want Rykujin to leave all his things, he just got a new computer (see previous post) etc. He's doing on-line schooling... All that would stop. He's finally DOING something and now talking of throwing it all away and foreswearing relationships all together.


I don't know. Things are swirling around me and I feel lost in the maelstrom.

I was reading some stuff Nanonukie posted about her health and it made me think about mine. There's also a group on Ralvery for fibromyalgia sufferers. I've been lucky that I've not had a major flare up for a number of months now, just the usual cold and typical back pain that I can't seem to get rid of. That being said, I don't feed myself very well. I get fresh greens about once a month, eat too much meat and drink too much soda. The thing is, i don't really know how to shake myself out of it. Cooking is something I used to love to do, now it's just more work- a chore. There's little enjoyment in preparing meals. Part of that is trying to cook around Rykujin. He's a somewhat picky eater and then there's the onion allergy issue. Sitting and knitting (or spinning) is about as interesting as I get (I taught myself how to knit socks starting at the toes and going up to the cuff! Once I did one, it was easy. Thanks choperena!! =-)

What am I trying to get at? Hurm. I'm fed up with my life, at the moment. I need something to change. Today's song is NIN Every Day is Exactly the Same.

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream

Monday, September 28, 2009

ravelry post

One of the message boards is for people with mental illnesses. You can bitch, question, or just expound. Someone posted this:

ive always been odd, ive always been creative. the two are like breathing in and out for me, they are flip sides of the same coin.

and this was my reply:

This. I don’t know which comes first, mental health problems leading to creative outlets for expression of things we just cant verbalize or the creative thinking leading to seeing the world around us differently. Throw in a hefty dose of neuro-receptors and hormones and you’ve got full on wacky genius.

I seem to have a bigger dose of the crazies than the rest of my family, but we’re all a little off kilter. I don’t think I ever realized just how much until I had my major (and I mean MAJOR) breakdown a few years ago. After that, I learned things about my family that truly surprised me. Yet somehow, I felt better knowing I wasn’t all that spechul of a snowflake by my families’ standards.

I think the more I try to normalize it, the more I miss it, in a way. Meds keep the moods stabalized, but they also dampen some of the world’s color. I just have to learn to live with it in a way that’s productive. That’s the catch, isn’t it??


Nothing special, but I thought I would share some of my thoughts...

It's Monday

I just stood up and my left leg simply stopped working. I was standing, and the next, *whoosh* my leg is as useful as jello. I managed to split 3 of my toes with this maneuver. my leg seems to be working fine now, but wow, that was scary. =-(

Other than that, things are going ok. Not much to really talk about. Well, there's *always* stuff going on, but....

Oh, I'm knitting a pair of socks from the toe down. Yay! I finished a tiny pair of baby socks yesterday. They're teal, so gender neutral, Redmond. ;-)

hugs and love

Dory's little piece
of insanity is full
of boring drivel.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Haiku for the day

wind carries leaves off,
dormant trees stand sentinel,
promise of new springs

or if you prefer:

Pepsi belch, bad taste.
Another day of spinning
wool and alpaca.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

a million tiny fibers

Well, yesterday was "Spin in Public" day (as well as "Talk like a Pirate" day, Arrrr!) and the Crafty Bitches made their way to Mad About Ewes in Lewisburg for the day. I had a great time. I found way too much yarn that needed a new home and more importantly, I was able to get 3# of wool (a lovely light grey Romney) to mix with my 3# of alpaca (a deep chestnut red).

Cephalogal was kind enough to teach me how to hand card the two together into 'rolags' so that I can spin (top whorl drop spindle) it all into yarn. I worry that I'm going to be carding and spinning for the next decade, it looks like so much fiber! I don't even have a remote idea when I'll be able to actually knit with it... For now, it's all a novel new skill to tuck under my belt (you know, for when humanity disintegrates back into cave men, lol)

I leaned that Tencel is wood pulp made into a fiber. It's considered a synthetic because it is man made, but like Rayon, is made from natural materials so it has essentially all the characteristics of a natural fiber like cotton, for instance. If you read the wiki on Tencel, it's pretty fascinating. Ok. maybe it's interesting just to me ;-)

Off to do more spinning!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

eye exam today

rykujin jokes that I was going to blog and say, "Hi, how is everyone? I spent the day depressed." meh.

Saw the eye doc today. My eyes have gotten a good deal worse than my last exam back in '07. I have a 6 month follow up with him. Because of the meds I'm taking, they dry my eyes out (ok, they dry everything out. Trying to get blood from me takes either a very skilled phlebotomist or 3 jabs, whichever comes first =-) Dry eyes mean that my (or anyone's) cornea dries out and wrinkles which cause blurring. It also affects how much fluid is in the eyeball and therefore the eyeball shape, making the astigmatism worse, as well. It was a very educational visit. I opted to keep my same frames and just get new lenses put it. Might as well save myself $100, right? Looks like I'll be wearing my glasses most of the time for now on, though. It's going to be a weird change having to put them on in the mornings, instead of just when I was driving (not that I did much of that either) or staring at the screen (tv, computer, movie, etc).

Other than that, not much to report. I saw Mr. P today who used to date my mom. He's a super nice guy and things are going well for him. We talked about orchestral rock music like Three Dog Night and I mentioned he might like Dream Theater. It was good to see him. I liked Mr. P ("Rob" as I call him). He was one of the few boyfriends my mom ever had that was interested in me as a person. He even helped Demented and I move into out first apartment way back in February '97)

Knitted some, watched some videos, played Civilization on the Xbox and generally was a lump. The boys (J&J) were down for a little while today too. Big J is really into one of The Reverend's video games, Mirror's Edge. Little J played WoW for a little bit. Little J is currently the one who's being brattiest, but that will change. Over all they're good kids, they just have their moments.

as an aside: Medical retirement sucks.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

my life in 10 lines

So there was a thread on Ravelry-LSG that asked us to distill our life to 10 bullet points. This is what I came up with:
  • born to poor rural parents of 2 seriously dysfunctional families
  • dad died when I was 7
  • moved to a college town at 10 when my mom got a job as a nurse at a state prison
  • High school spent in the art department, avoiding everyone except my HS sweetheart
  • Went to college for an Art/English/German degree, but quit because of mental health issues
  • while in college, held down a full time job (essentially) working with computers. Then in ‘96, offered a full time job with real benefits doing virtual reality things
  • developed physical problems as well as continued mental problems
  • had a major breakdown in 05 and ended up divorced, lost my cats to the ex, house foreclosed and 2 cars repossessed
  • trying to claw my way out of a pile of shit
It was actually really hard to do it. what do you pick and choose as the 'highlights' of your life? If I were to do it 1 week from now, it would be slightly different. I've been sliding back into a dystopic view of life again. For some reason, the dreams of Demented have come back. I just *exist* with nothing of real interest to talk about. I live for the few days I get out among people who are willing to put up with me, allow me to tag along. I just don't have much to contribute.... blah.

as an aside, I've been watching REPO: The Genetic Opera with commentary. I LOVE this movie. It's hysterical. If you've not seen it, watch it, keeping in mind it's a Rock Opera, so everything is over the top and there's lots of singing (but it's done well =)

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Back to the Sex Pistols

For years I hated the Sex Pistols because it made me think of RAE. I dated him for a while when I was a teen. He LOVED them. He thought he was Sid Vicious reincarnated (odd, since RAE was born in 73 and Sid didn't die till 79). I credit with RAE getting me into skateboarding, punk, thrash, and bucking the system. He helped me grow into an individual. He wasn't that great of a person though and getting rid of him was one of the best moves I think I ever made. I often wonder what ever happened to him.

Realistically, I've only ever dated him, Demented (whom I was married to then divorced from), and Rykujin. The concept of 'dating' terrifies me. I don't know how people survive breaking up and meeting new people. My divorce pretty much shattered me to the point where I'm pretty much paralyzed at the thought of change.

Something my therapist and I talk about quite a lot, actually.


So today was Rykujin's birthday (the big three zero). He got stung by a yellow jacket that somehow found it's way into the house where Rykujin stepped on it. Right between his toes. He said he wants a big plastic ball that he can live in for a day next year. heh.

We watched J&J earlier today for our upstairs neighbor while she was working. They're... kids. Sometimes they can be really sweet and good and most of the time they drive you up a wall. =) Little J likes to play World of Warcraft while he's down here, but doesn't do too well since he has problems reading still. I have to help him by reading the quests out loud to him. Big J has a 'Rip Stick' that he's really into at the moment. A lot of boys around here have them. It's the craziest thing. If you're not familiar with one, it's sorta like the next evolution of skateboards. Excecpt the Rip Stick only has two roller blade like wheels that pivot 360 degrees and there are two platforms that are attached to each other by a tube, allowing the platforms to rotate (yaw, I guess??) Big J is getting better on it. He's started trying to do grinds and ollies with it... *shakes head* Man do I feel old and pudgy.

I've been knitting and reading Ravelry off and on all day. My back won't stop hurting so I'm disinclined to do much of anything. My beads languish, cleaning and/or redding up doesn't happen. I'm just a big lazy lump. Oh well, at least yarn is getting used, right?

ETA: I just discovered Sarah Haskins off of an LSG thread on Ravelry. OMFG. She is funny. Seriously funny. I wish I would have seen her long ago. I guess it just means I have a night of funny videos ahead of me...


Saturday, September 12, 2009

I hate September

Too many bad things lumped together all at once.

8th - 28 years anniversary of my dad dying
9th - Happy Birthday Demented. I hope you're doing well
11th - *grunt*
13th - Rykujin's birthday

To top it off, Rykujin has what we think is an abscess under one of his teeth. He's scheduled for a root canal on the 21st. The Dentist had given him 10 days of penicillin and said that should help stop the pain. Well he took it and 4 days after the course was run, we were in the ER last night because Rykujin was so miserable. He's even got swelling on that side of his face. Back on penicillin again. Happy Birthday to him.


I'm still debating the haircut thing. I like the razored emo-esque haircuts too. The funny thing is, with my hair long, I get a lot of compliments from older women (say 50-60 years old). It's a moot point at the moment anyhow, because of lack of funds.

On the positive side, I finished my Quant head band today! yay me.

Monday, September 07, 2009

hair cut time

So I'm thinking I want a change. I'm looking at the following photos as examples of what I might like. Comments or thoughts from people. Here's the current hair style. I end up wearing it back in a pony tail or pig tails most of the time. Maybe I shouldn't even do anything (other than keep coloring it =)

Friday, September 04, 2009

The Chocolate Chambord Cake of Doom

After freaking out because I couldn't find my recipe book, I managed to locate a really crappy copy of the The Chocolate Chambord Cake of Doom. I decided it was time to type it back in and 'store' it somewhere.

So, you Crafty Bitches, this is what you're getting Sunday >;-)

The Chocolate Chambord Cake of Doom

The Cake

  • 8 oz Semi-sweet chocolate
  • 1 cup water (give or take)
  • 2 1/4 cup flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 3/4 tsp salt
  • 1 1/2 sugar
  • 3/4 cup butter
  • 1 tsp vanilla
  • 2 eggs
  • 1/8 - 1/4 cup Chambord Liquor

  1. preheat oven to 375
  2. take 2 9" cake pans, line the bottoms with parchment and lightly oil the sides (do NOT flour)
  3. mix flour, salt, & baking soda, set aside
  4. mix sugar, butter & vanilla till creamy
  5. add eggs one at a time, beating well each time
  6. add Chambord Liquor to batter and mix well
  7. melt chocolate and 1/8 - 1/4 cup water until smooth
  8. add chocolate to batter and mix well
  9. gradually add the flour mixture to the batter, alternating with the remaining water until all flour mix is used. Batter should be thick but not dough-like
  10. Split the batter between the two pans and bake 30 - 35 minutes until toothpick comes out clean
  11. allow to cool a good deal then split them down the edge so that you have 4 thin round cakes


The Chocolate Truffle filling

Type #1 (Original)

  • 2 boxes (3.9oz) instant chocolate pudding mix
  • 3/4 cup heavy cream
  • 4oz semi-sweet chocolate
  • Generous dash of Chambord Liquor

  1. melt chocolate and Chambord Liquor together till smooth
  2. mix in the cream
  3. add one box of pudding and keep mixing, slowly adding the second box until very thick (you may only need 1/4 of the second box)

Type #2 (easy)

  • 2 boxes (3.9oz) instant chocolate pudding mix
  • large tub cool-whip

  1. mix well


The Original Chocolate Cream Cheese Frosting

  • 2 Tbs Butter
  • 4 oz softened cream cheese
  • 1 1/2 oz unsweetened baking chocolate (OR 3 Tbs coca & 1Tbs vegetable oil)
  • 1 1/2sifted confectionary sugar
  • 1/4 cup heavy cream
  • 1/2 tsp vanilla
  • dash of salt
  • generous splash of Chambord Liquor

  1. mix all ingredients well


Putting the cake together

  1. With the bottom layer of cake on it's "final resting place" slather 1/3 of the Chocolate Truffle Filling on it
  2. add another layer of cake and slather on another 1/3 of the filling
  3. repeat again then place the final top layer
  4. add the Chocolate Cream Cheese Frosting over the outside (NOTE: if this frosting was refrigerated, you will need to let it warm up and probably whip it soft before it will spread well)
  5. try and clear out enough refrigerator space to put this beast in

Serve thin slices and enjoy!

Copyright 2000-2009 Dory Ferguson. You're free to copy and use the recipe as long as you don't make money off it.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Kingdom of Loathing

I did it. I finally made an account on Kingdom of Loathing. I'm mdmice there. Isilzha was already taken. ><

more later

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

rykujin's big spending day

Rykujin got some of his back pay today so he went on a spending bender. =-) He paid the back balance on our cable modem and got it set up to re-install service (my neighbor has been kind enough to allow me access to her WAP for a little while which is how I'm posting). He picked up an HP computer from Wal-mart which we just spent the last 3 hours cleaning the desk off and pulling wires that we don't need anymore, vacuuming the floor under the desk etc. He's set up and off he goes, clicking on his very EULA for Vista 64bit home edition. fun fun.

On the plus side, that means that I get my mac PowerBook back as my very own, no sharing anymore!! WOO HOO!!!!!!! I'm really psyched about this, if you couldn't tell.

He also picked up an Xbox 360, Guitar Hero 5, and Guitar Hero World Tour Kit. Kinda his birthday present from Uncle Sam, I guess. I snuck a game out of him too. I got Onechanbara: Bikini Samurai Squad. Yeah, I know, Dory, what were you thinking?! It just looked way too much fun to pass. up. It's extremely graphic, gory, and just too fun

Sunday, August 30, 2009

nothing much going on

I lead a boring life full of small, petty and mostly meaningless drivel. I can complain about my back, talk about how my right hand is starting to peel again probably from all my knitting but I don't care, I'm addicted to yarn and roving (to the point beads are a secondary thought!!!), I hate video game(er)s at the moment, typing with long fingernails sucks but I'm too damn proud of them to cut them off yet, and Havoc has run off somewhere and she better not be getting knocked up!!

See, it's all mostly trivial things. I know I owe Maryland and Redmond phone calls. I found yet another group on Ravlery to read (Chronic Bitches [for people with chronic ailments, you naughty minded people!!]) I gloss over the news, no longer fancying myself the harbinger of doom (It's already here. Yes it's going to get worse. Big Brother sucks. We're all still alive. next? =) by reading news for 3.75 hours a day and leaving drudgereport open all the time ;-)

I guess that leaves my Grange Fair Report. I went. It rained. I was soaked. I ate WAY too much greasy food (A Gyro I spilled down my front - Tzatziki all over me *sigh*, funnel cake, chocolate shake, and deep fried mushrooms.... all in all good foods). Thankfully, I managed to avoid seeing anyone I knew ('Cept choperena et al). In the scheme of Grange Fair trips, one of my better ones, sans the soaking rain. It was nice hanging out with cephalogal, nanonukie (and hubby), and Z. It's been a while since I laughed like that. Ok. Maybe a week, but still. I actually enjoyed Grange this year.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

the saga continues

Well long time no type. I'm sure I could turn the last couple weeks into an epic poem if I really sat down to do it. At the moment, I'm snarfing someone's open wi-fi to post this. My internet was shut off while I was at pennsic. *whistles Innocently* It will get taken care of soon. Anyhow...

Rykujin went off to Job Corps just like planned, but only made it through 5 days there. He said the daytime staff was very nice and mostly made up for the fact that the premises was an old mental institution surrounded by barb wire and guards. Once the day shift was gone, however, it reverted to a prison mentality. the week before he arrived, one student had shot another. He got along with the other students (inmates =-) but felt he was too old to really deal with all the other crap. He came back here while I was still at Pennsic.

He's started the process to go to the University of Phoenix online. He just found out that in addition to the federal grant and loan, he also qualifies for the PA PHEAA grant, too. So that's a very good thing.

Today he's in Lewistown dealing with his child support. As of late, however, Rev has been over to hang out. It's been nice to see him. He's loaning us his XBox 360 for a while. Rykujin and Rev are absorbed into Fable II at the moment.

I'm doing ok. cephalogal, choperena and nanonukie have been instrumental in keeping my spirits up. We spent the last weekend hand dying wool yarn. It was a BLAST! I want to do more. much more and try selling it, possibly. at the moment I'm knitting a scarf out of one ball that I'm calling 'Early Autumn' since it's shades of deep green, with just a little yellow and crimson/chestnut. *does happy dance*

Nanonukie introduced me to one of her husband's friends, Z. He's really cool! He works for a company that does GIS maps for farmers based on soil samples so they can fertilize crops more effectively. Blew my mind. He also has an extensive knowledge of esoteric movies. I really like hanging out with him. Someone else who likes listening to Director's Commentaries just as much as I do! hehehehe

Sunday, August 09, 2009

back from Pennisc

I am alive and kicking. Ok. I'm really alive and shuffling, but I'm back from Pennsic in one piece. =) I'll update more a little later as I get things put away and cleaned up

Friday, July 24, 2009

Pennsic tomorrow!

As if I haven't beat the dead horse enough, I wanted to make sure everyone knows that I'll have very limited access to email and my on-line life for the next two weeks. If you want to reach me, I'll have my phone or you can text me:
814.308.4145 [phone or text me]
8143084145 at mobile dot mycingular dot com

I will be back on August 9th.

Thursday, July 23, 2009


I've wanted green hair dye for ages now and have been just too lazy to order it on line. WELL! Sally Beauty now carries green Manic Panic. Yay! I bleached my hair and dyed it last night. I tried something a little different this time. I did the roots fuschia and the longer part green. I went upstairs to show my neighbor and she started laughing and said "watermelon!" Indeed I do have watermelon hair!

have a smile on my behalf:

Friday, July 17, 2009

Pennsic rush

Well, Pennsic is just around the corner and I've gone into mad sewing overdrive. My plans are to crank out 2 chemise tops and at least 1, hopefully 2 front lacing bodices. I think I should be able to do this and have time to relax. It's all pretty easy sewing. I hate cutting fabric the most because I have to sit on the floor to do it. It is hell on my back doing it on the floor, but *shrug* it could be worse.

Rykujin is still leaving on the 27th. He had his SSD/SSI hearing on Wednesday and it was fully favorable. They're going to 'diary' him for a year and follow his progress at JobCorp. It was a huge weight off his mind.

On the down side, Jewels' (of the C&J faction) mother passed away last week. My heart goes out to her. I was sad to hear of K's passing. A feisty woman who will be missed...

Over all, I'm doing ok. Ups and downs, the usual. Went to the SCA meeting last night. It was interesting. I was hot, so had problems spinning. My hands were so sweaty that the wool was sticking to them. ick. I realized today that the PFA expires. I'm feeling mixed about it. So much time has passed. The good and the bad are a jumble in my head. I don't think I'm afraid anymore, just sad. very sad...

Hope everyone is doing well.
hugs and love

Saturday, July 04, 2009

all is mostly quiet

I'm bunny-sitting over the weekend, as well as tending another friend's animals. Under my watch are 4 cats, 2 fish, a bird and the aforementioned bunny. =)

I've mostly been spinning and fiddling around with polymer clay (making drop spindles). Last Sunday a group of us got together and made some, then on Tuesday I went to the spinner's guild meeting at the library. Thursday I went to the local SCA meeting. Tomorrow Ralph is coming up with his family for breakfast at the Waffle Shop. I think this has been my busiest week in a loooooong time.

I'm still a bit schitzy about being out in public, but I put on the happy face and give it a go.

My neck, shoulders and wrists are all complaining, but I just cant sit still and do nothing. I do watch my posture when I'm spinning. I think it actually promotes better posture just because of the motions used, but I'm still achy. *shrug* it could be much worse.

I hope that today, the 4th, finds everyone well and free.


Monday, June 29, 2009

just a quick update


Rykujin just got the call. It's official. He leaves for Pittsburgh on July 27!

as an aside:
yesterday Aurora et al met and we made polymer clay drop spindles. They turned out ok. Between D and Aurora though, I have some ideas to work on...


Thursday, June 11, 2009

up on!

Well, I've done it. I've started adding my jewelry to I'm at if you want to look. At some point I want to be able to have more than just 10 items and ideally be able to accept credit cards. All in due time. I at least got a few things up.

I don't really have hope that they'll sell. There must be hundreds of items there. What is the chance that someone will even come across my listings AND want the items I'm offering. It's a long shot but at least it's a start.

well, off to list more things.
hugs and love

Tuesday, June 09, 2009


this is as much a note to myself as a note to you, dear reader.

I have discovered knit scumbling! OMG. it's like my free form beading, but with string instead!! (sorry, but it's a 2 exclamation point revelation for myself =-)
There are some seriously faboo example at Knot Just Knitting or you can visit her Flicker Gallery. They're absolutely delicious!

I realize now I don't have nearly enough odds and ends of yarn. I see my future stretched out in front of me. Years of collecting beads and yarn in all kinds of textures and colors. *sigh* I guess I could have more expensive hobbies.


wow! I've reached 150 posts. Mostly all drivel. After all, there's only so much that goes on my secluded life. I can talk about doctor's office visits and med adjustments, but who really wants to know day-to-day, blasé stuff like "oh, I'm seriously constipated" or "I went fishing on WoW for 2 hours today."

It doesn't make for great reading.

I guess I'll at least post a plea tonight: Currently, I'm looking for a ride to Pennsic Saturday July 25th. KlrWombat has other obligations that take him out of state. I'm going from State College to Cooper's Lake just outside of Slippery Rock. From my place it's about a 3 hour drive. If anyone knows anyone who would be willing to do it, I am paying round trip gas and food. Let me know.

Beyond my search for a ride, I've been futzing around, keeping myself busy various ways. I am working on a pink cotton snood using 4mm double pointed knitting needles. I've also been working in the bead room not only making pieces, but photographing and documenting them. That is in preparation for posting them on I also have started preparing fabric to make a baby quilt for StudDragon's upcoming addition.

Guess I better sign off and hit the hay.
hugs and love all

Thursday, June 04, 2009

wool and other tangles

Well, I'm washing some wool. I bought it originally to felt into beads, but I like to colors so much I might try spinning a small ball with it. I'm not sure yet. One thing I have discovered about washing wool (other than it's a bit smelly when wet) is that it's time consuming when there is 'field dirt' (my name for shit and dirt) mixed in with plant matter. Leaning over the sink is killing my back, so I have to do it in small increments. Tomorrow (ok, later today) I'm going to tackle a larger bag in the kitchen sink instead of the small handfuls I've been doing in the bathroom sink.

I finally got my account on ravelry and it's already got my head spinning (no pun intended) with projects to do! I'm looking at some fingerless gloves since my hands get cold while working with beads (stupid Raynaud's) and sometimes on the computer. The 1# of wool I bought is probably going to be made into a shawl, and I found lace headbands to make too. 

Aurora and D. took me to the local weavers and knitters guild meeting yesterday. I have to admit, I had some anxiety about going. In the end, it was a great evening with women who assured me that having A Stash is perfectly normal and if I didn't have at least one room dedicated to my crafts (check. Got that covered) I would soon enough. While having a loom (small, though it is =) put me firmly into the 'belonging' category, I realize that I'm going to get a spinning wheel someday. It's as simple as that. I've become so hooked on fibers, out and beyond just string and yarn, that it's almost ridiculous. lol. oh well. 
I think I may be getting sick again. I'm really tired most of the day, but sleep still eludes me unless I take my Trazadone and I don't like taking it during the day. It screws up my sleep pattern. Though I suppose seeing that I'm posting at 12:30 at night doesn't help so much. I'm trying a couple different ways to beat the headaches  into submission, including wearing my glasses (since I've been beading) and taking caffeine pills (not drinking soda ATM). Don't worry, I haven't taken any since 3pm...

Over all, since getting the bead room functional, I've been in a better mood and less melancholy, just occasionally anxious if I'm dealing with people. 

So I play World of Warcraft. It's supposed to be this place where you interact with others. Not me. I spend my hour or so a day fishing. Someone, a stranger, asked me to join a group because they were bored and thought they could get me some better armor. I panicked and made an excuse that supper was ready and logged off instead of going out adventuring. It literally caused me to panic. That's how my brain still works, for some reason. How lame am I? *sigh*

well, I guess I'll try and get some sleep. Later.

Monday, June 01, 2009

long time no type

Well, it's been over a month since I last posted. Various reasons; trip to Pittsburgh, being sick, cleaning, SCA related things, beads.... It's nice that I can add 'beads' to the list. There's a little bit of being lazy too, but I just never seemed to get around to posting.

I'll try going in chronological order.

The trip to The 'Burgh was nice. I enjoyed my time with C+J. We talked about me moving there (seriously talked, as in not renewing my lease here in Boalsburg) and even looked at one of her friend's place. In the end, I don't think I'm ready to move yet for a number of reasons. I really didn't see me being able to pull the money together to do so. As lame as it sounds, I don't know that I'm ready to change doctors (especially my therapist) just yet, either. There are many good reasons to go there (large artist community, more specialist doctors, etc) but I'm staying here for at least another year.

I was dog sick the last couple days there and then for a couple days back home. It might have been a resurgence of the flu, but I honestly think that Mc Donald's food is officially off limits for me. For whatever reason, the last 3 times I've eaten there (2 different locations) I've become painfully sick. Oh well. no more Big Macs for me.

The week after I got home, I got a cortisone epidural at L5/S1, so I was laid up for a few days after that. On the plus side, I'm not having as much numbness in my left leg, so I think it's helping. Woot!

From there, I was working on a new dress. It's plum silk-like fabric with a ecru brocade bodice. It was put together in an early 1500's Venice Italy style with detached sleeves. I finally found a use for all that linen lucet cord I made! Over all, I think it turned out pretty well even if I didn't have period fabrics. I finished it and wore it to crown tourney at the end of April. I had a good time while there. Vlad, Valeska and my niece stayed with me for that weekend. It was wonderful. (it's nice to have a guest room again!)

The down side to having the guest room was the fact that a ton of stuff got dumped into the bead/sewing room making it unusable. So, for the past month, Rykujin had been helping me move things around and tidy up. The upside is I now have a working beading table and most of my beads are organized. I say 'most' because I've discovered just how many beads I have. 

It's a lot.

My therapist has been working with me to put my life back into some sort of productive routine. It's not that I've not been making things ( re the socks saga and the obsessive spinning) but rather something more focused on moving forward. I don't know if that makes any sense, but suffice it to say I have a tax license again (in my name only) and I've been both making Objects d'Art as well as writing instructions for bracelets so that I might submit them to magazines for print. I think sitting in the room, organizing beads that I can remember purchasing 10, 15 years ago and thinking back even farther, I realized I've been playing with beads for over 20 years. Closer to 25, really. I've been playing with Fimo and other polymer clays for about 19 years!! Time really does fly.

Aurora has turned me towards and to sell my wares. I need to photograph them, as well as read up on how the two sites work and the TOS, but who knows, maybe soon I'll actually have things for sale again. I've even thought about going back to the Black Cat or trying to teach at Creative Oasis if either place will have me. I still want my own store, someday. Baby steps first. Consider it a 5 year plan sorta thing. =) I already have someone lined up to help with the books, though. I wonder if she would run screaming if I asked her to help inventory beads, tools, jewelry etc. ? lol

Anyhow, tomorrow I'm going to my first meeting of the local Weavers and Spinners' Guild. Like anything new I try (anymore at least) I'm a little wigged out about it. I don't know how I'll fit. I'm the square peg trying to fit into a round hole. Oh well, I'll manage. It's good for me to get out, right? =-)

This past weekend a group of us went to the TrimTex mill and then Steam Valley Fibers. I had received my 'Stimulus Money' so I splurged a little on myself (my other prize purchase was a tiny pink iPod Shuffle =) and bought a pound of roving called California Surfing. I've already spun one ounce of it and have moved onto the next ounce.

Rykujin is still on target to go to Pittsburgh mid to late July to start schooling. He is looking at business management instead of culinary schooling. He talked with the intake counselor and they decided that while everyone has to eat, there's a limited amount of need for sou chefs. When presented with a trade school certificate verses a BS, the BS has more weight. Besides, he would have to deal with onions regularly and that would pose problems for him.

well, I guess that's enough for now. More later and I'll try to make sure that it's not as long a wait as this last time.